The 16 year old I am sitting in English class with a long face thinking about how to make my dream come true.
There is just something within me which gives me an urge to make it possible. Questions such as-"Will this remain a dream forever or would I be able to make it come true?" keeps haunting me. It provokes a feeling of... something strange, may be its low self esteem or scare or guilt because of not working sincerely. This just made me shiver for a second. I now feel goosebumps raising on my arms as the cool air jets out of the air conditioners of the class. Why is this sudden fear popping up? Is it because I flunked in physics and computer science? Or is it because I am really scared to face the world?
I wish I could meet the 30 year old me and ensure if it is really safe to come out of the shade, face the light emitted by the real world and ask if the the light is bright, gives warmth or heat, shoulder of support or a kick backward, a path full of difficulties or challenges. If I do ask, I hope I get a positive reply from the future part of me , assuring , "yes, the light gives warmth, offers a shoulder of support, it is full of challenges against which you can always combat and win , you can sprout out and display your real talents and show yourself distinctly." Perhaps I am just exaggerating, or maybe the light itself is not as bright as it seems from the shade.
I want the 30 year old I to have earned loads of money with a job I love, a big bungalow with slides and trampolines instead of staircases and many other interesting elements, to entertain myself. My ultimate aim is have many adventures, new experiences and like unexpected twists. yup! that is of course better than a monotonous way of life.
At present, I find myself in reality, slogging to pass my 12th board exam, prospecting to come up with flying colours and expecting to look back at the 16 year old I, with a smile of assurance denoting,"Everything is going to be all right. Just be bold enough to come out of the shade, the light will always be on your side, encouraging you whenever you fall and backing you up when you need motivation".
There is just something within me which gives me an urge to make it possible. Questions such as-"Will this remain a dream forever or would I be able to make it come true?" keeps haunting me. It provokes a feeling of... something strange, may be its low self esteem or scare or guilt because of not working sincerely. This just made me shiver for a second. I now feel goosebumps raising on my arms as the cool air jets out of the air conditioners of the class. Why is this sudden fear popping up? Is it because I flunked in physics and computer science? Or is it because I am really scared to face the world?
I wish I could meet the 30 year old me and ensure if it is really safe to come out of the shade, face the light emitted by the real world and ask if the the light is bright, gives warmth or heat, shoulder of support or a kick backward, a path full of difficulties or challenges. If I do ask, I hope I get a positive reply from the future part of me , assuring , "yes, the light gives warmth, offers a shoulder of support, it is full of challenges against which you can always combat and win , you can sprout out and display your real talents and show yourself distinctly." Perhaps I am just exaggerating, or maybe the light itself is not as bright as it seems from the shade.
I want the 30 year old I to have earned loads of money with a job I love, a big bungalow with slides and trampolines instead of staircases and many other interesting elements, to entertain myself. My ultimate aim is have many adventures, new experiences and like unexpected twists. yup! that is of course better than a monotonous way of life.
At present, I find myself in reality, slogging to pass my 12th board exam, prospecting to come up with flying colours and expecting to look back at the 16 year old I, with a smile of assurance denoting,"Everything is going to be all right. Just be bold enough to come out of the shade, the light will always be on your side, encouraging you whenever you fall and backing you up when you need motivation".
5 comments:
Its sumthing tat strikes every1.... Awesum presentation and expression of feelings...
hoye!!! its cool!!! ur gonna do just fine!! like how ill always introduce to any of my friends when am 30 "the girl who is famous in whatever she does!!" the future tense of what you want now!! and its gonna be the truth so rock on!!
Amazing. powerful. completely relatable. Its like looking inside the mind of my 16yr old self. I cudn't have put it better than this. Chk my mail. you rock. keep writing.
U R ALREADY 'MASTERS' IN YR OWN STYLE, IT ONLY NEEDS A FAME-HUNGRY UNIVERSITY OF WORLD REPUTE HAND OVER THE MERIT THING TO U!
awesome! young writer! the kind of getting self assured from ones ownself emerging from within, a time machine connecting future and present not past, a sign of refinement and urge for improvement in life! the lion hiding for pouncing only! and so rock on! keep going!
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